When I was thinking about my life and reflecting on my decisions and the consequences that followed, I thought about what I may want to do differently. I thought about the wise words of my mother and late father and I began to tear up.
At the mere age of 29, I have felt slightly battered by my past, as I am sure everyone does, and I thought about words of strength or hope or build faith. But then it hit me. The only advice I would give to me younger self is “well done and I love you” I know this is not really advice but hear me out.
We all feel that we could have done something differently or handled a situation better. However, what butterfly effect would that have caused. Yes I would have been more grateful for my family, was less moody as a teenager and spent more time with my father before he passed away. But those moments taught me lessons about time being precious and be kind above all else which I may not have learnt those lessons otherwise.
So instead, I want to say well done. I’ve coped well and I am still standing. Because in this world, we are all a bit too quick to criticise and find faults within ourselves. We should be taking the time and building ourselves up. We need to love the crap out of ourselves in order to survive. We need to gave ourselves a break because life is hard and it’s cold.
So to my 18 year old self, who just lost her father and her life was falling apart and to the 21 year old graduate at her graduation, to the 22 year old postgraduate student travelling 100 miles two days a week to university, to the 24 year old female who walked away from her unhealthy relationship, to the 28 year old woman tangled up in the safety net, and finally, to the 29 year old typing this email, well done and I love you.