I have a lot of goals in life. A LOT.
I want to:
- write a novel
- have a successful online business
- open my own gluten free cafe/bakery
- have a childcare business
- be a paid writer for an online magazine (or several)
- write children’s books
But for the most part, I am simply too scared of failure to get started with any of them.
Sure, I will sit down, have a little brainstorm about what I could do in regards to the online business, or pitch to a few magazines every now and again, but that productivity tends to run dry pretty quickly.
My voice of self-doubt comes crashing in, telling myself that I’m being ridiculous, that these successes will never come my way because I lack a) the talent, b) the knowledge, c) the resources, d) the drive or e) all of the above.
I then give up on any little progress I have made until weeks or months later, when I have finally found some refreshing motivation or inspiration in form of a success story online.
This cycle repeats itself every now and again, depending on the goal I am trying to focus on.
I fear failure, but I won’t let it stop me. Sometimes you just got to do it or else it just doesn’t happen.
– Mark Cuban
Often I come across some lifestyle coaches – glamorous entrepreneurial women who somewhat promise that they can show anybody how to create the ‘life that you’ve always dreamed of’ and I am mostly sceptical.
I’m sure that a lot of these entrepreneurs have indeed helped lots of people reach their goals and succeed in whatever sector they desire, but can anybody really do it? Can I really do it?
There seems to be a lot to learn and so much to do that I have no idea how to, but is that the real reason I’m scared? Am I actually scared because if I really, truly, give it all I’ve got, there’s still a large risk of failure? Probably.
Believe you can and you’re halfway there.
– Theodore Roosevelt
The goals I want to focus on at the moment are the online business and the novel. In an attempt to motivate/guilt myself into writing more fiction, I created a fictional writing tracker in my bullet journal, with the very reasonable goal word-count of 5,000. And guess what? I started off well, then lost all confidence. I only have about 1,500 words written and it’s almost at the 5,000 word deadline (the end of May). But I guess it’s better than nothing, right?
In terms of an online business, I cannot figure out what I could actually sell that not only would create profits but would be something that I actually love to do, make and sell. I’ve had plenty of ideas in the past but have dropped them all pretty quickly. My self-doubt is a fast mover.
It always seems impossible until it’s done.
– Nelson Mandela
I would love somebody to tell me the magic formula, to tell me EXACTLY what I need to do and how to do it, but that just isn’t how life goes. With my baby on the way (only 6 months left) I am putting even more pressure on myself to get something going, to get my goals on track, to make myself proud.
There’s that famous quote by Mark Twain:
The secret of getting ahead is getting started.
It’s such a logical and simple sentence, yet seems so overwhelming. Where do I start? What’s the first step? What’s the step after that? How do I know I’m doing it right? I suppose those questions are the kinds of things I need to ignore. If I wanna do as Mark Twain says, I need to just go with my gut and give it a shot – leave the questions til later.
Wish me luck.