As you may know, on Friday 17th November I gave birth to my daughter. It still feels strange to say that, my daughter, as having her in my life still feels completely alien to me and my SO. However, we are learning everyday and doing the very best that we can.
One of my favourite movies is Forgetting Sarah Marshall. What I love about it is Peter (played by Jason Segel, who also wrote the movie). It wasn’t the break-up between himself and Sarah that made me empathise or connect with the character, but instead it was his behaviours. His mental health.
We met at the very worst time. I had just found out that I was the victim of several years worth of image-based sexual abuse. I was spiralling but didn’t know it. I kept busy, I ate less, I drank more. I went after thrills even more than before. I wasn’t treating myself very well.
Anxiety can make me become completely paranoid. I imagine the very worst is going to happen and it’s going to be my fault. This normally happens when I begin to feel anxious about talking to somebody about something that has been bothering me.