I owe lots to blogging.
I’ve made some wonderful friends in the blogging community, even fallen in love with somebody (he’s an ex now but that’s not the point). It’s enabled me to share some very personal things that have felt almost impossible to say out loud.
I’ve been able to make sense of how I’m feeling, feel less alone when others comment on my posts. Blogging has enabled me to process my mental illnesses and my revenge porn experience.
It’s been something I’ve done for over 5 years now.
You may have noticed that blogging itself has been a topic I keep coming back to – I’ve talked about how I almost quit blogging, and how writing is my therapy. I’ve also written about how I’ll never be a pro-blogger and why there is no right way to blog.
All these things I stand by still, though I must admit – I very almost got a paid blogging opportunity by a therapy service. The payments seemed really great and to be honest with you, I need the cash. However, it seems that opportunity has hopped and skipped away from me, with my contact no longer responding to my emails. Oh well.
I’m telling you this because blogging has recently dropped off my list of priorities. I have a lot, like a heck of a lot, of life stuff going on at the moment, and that will only continue (and grow) as the months go on. There’s just more important things I need to be doing. One of those things is making some cash.
My SO and I have been struggling with money ever since February 2016. Now with Violet on the way (only 3 and a half months to go), struggling with money is something we can’t afford (pun intended).
We have some money coming in, thanks to my wonderful SO getting a pretty decent job in a marketing department. However, I haven’t earned any money since April, and even then, it was a low salary in a part-time job.
I know I’m the pregnant one but I still feel a tremendous guilt that I am not earning my own money or able to contribute in any way. Plus, I want to make Violet proud.
So, because blogging is a little off the priority list, it’s going on the back burner.
My focus is going to still be writing, don’t worry about that. I need writing in my life. I couldn’t be myself without writing – it’s my favourite outlet and I don’t know where I’d be without it. I’ve even started a secret blog to help me get through some of my darker moments, restarted my journalling habit, as well as start some fiction (see how much I love to write?).
So to make a little bit of dollar, I’m going to do the following:
- More ghost-writing. Thanks to a wonderful blogger friend, I use a content creation site that allows me to make a little money for writing blog posts and articles. I sold my first one just a few days ago.
- Pitch and sell personal essays. I have a lot of personal essays on this blog, and that format of writing is what I consider a type of therapy. I’m already on a couple of different websites, but to be paid for such work will be a dream come true.
- Setting up a Patreon account. Another wonderful blogger friend recently did this herself, and made a lovely Q&A video to show followers what kind of perks they would be getting. I need to get my thinking cap on to think of some awesome rewards for anybody that supports me, but soon I shall have a Patreon page (however scary that may seem to me).
That may not seem like a lot but just those little bits will really help me out. Not only will the extra income be absolutely amazing, but it would boost my self-esteem so much. Like many others, I feel like my talents aren’t really worth shit most of the time. There’s so many incredible writers out there – there’s no way I can compete with them. In reality though, every writer’s voice is different, and seeing as mine seems to have helped a couple of you lovely readers, plus been published on other platforms, it can’t be that bad. Heck, maybe it’s even good.
Within these next 3 and a half months (I can’t believe this pregnancy is going that fast), I’m going to channel all the energy I have into other writing, with the occasional blog post in-between. No schedules, no specific blog posting days. It’s already feeling like a weight off my shoulders.
But don’t worry, this is not a good-bye!
And hey, if you’d like to support me right this very second, you can always buy me a cup of coffee to keep me going:
Please and thank you.