It’s hard to say much about April.
We have been doing our best to stay healthy and sane. I miss my friends. I miss trips out. The idea that we should be using this time to better ourselves makes me feel guilty and lazy, when really the most important thing is that we are getting through each day.
“One of the most important things you can do on this earth is to let people know they are not alone.”
– Shannon L. Alder
I’m grateful to be living with my ex partner/ best friend and our daughter. I’m grateful for the home we live in and especially our garden. I’m very lucky not to have lost anybody to this virus. But it is hard. Each day is a victory, each day is a deep sigh.
I want to be kinder to myself and not expect miracles from my day to day. I can’t do everything. We’re doing our best and that is more than enough.
We are allowed to rest if we need to and yes, we all need to. Getting through each day as best we can, however we can, is an accomplishment. It’s just very difficult to recognise that sometimes.
The month of April has been eaten up by the pandemic. Chewed up and spat out, then swallowed whole. We can only ride this wave. The future is very uncertain, but then again, it always is.
“Just as despair can come to one only from other human beings, hope, too, can be given to one only by other human beings.”
– Elie weisel