I suppose I’m a bit of a jealous person. An insecure person.
When I’m scrolling through my Twitter feed(s) and I see that somebody completely awesome has achieved a dream similar to mine, I can feel quite deflated.
It’s as if they have taken my dream and now I have no chance of achieving it for myself. They’ve done it, they’ve ticked that box, so now there’s no room for me.
And yes, I know how silly that is.
The dream I’m referring to is writing and publishing a book. In all honesty, I see myself writing a book that’s similar to my blog in content, rather than a piece of epic fiction (though I would love to do that too).
Sometimes when I see those who have a book coming out, I think that they must have some sort of superpower. How did they manage to get a book out? How did they get it to print? How did they find the self-belief to actually finish a first draft?
How am I supposed to compete?
When it comes to achieving my dreams, I think self-belief has a much bigger role than one may initially think. Sure, you need a bit of talent, a bit of practice, a bit of perseverance – but really, if you haven’t got that belief in yourself to go out there and achieve your dreams, you probably won’t even try in the first place.
I think that is true for me. I start to write, trying to take the pressure off (the first draft is always shit, apparently), but I never finish. I can just about manage a blog post.
As well as gain a bit of confidence, I also need to focus on my own successes, instead of other people’s. As I’ve said many times before, comparison is a confidence killer. We all live our lives our own way, go through different experiences, and end up doing things in our own time. By taking note of what I have already achieved, I can potentially gain the confidence I need to reach a new goal.
Besides, what’s the point of being jealous if not to make you motivated? If they can do it, then I can do it too.