Yep, Still Here

Currently in pyjama bottoms, a Juno Birch t-shirt and my dressing gown (though it’s difficult to remember when I wasn’t dressed in a similar attire). It’s 12:37pm, I’m waiting for the washing machine to finish it’s loud cycle so I can get the laundry drying outside and feel a little sense of accomplishment.

Yep, that’s what 367-ish days of a global pandemic does to you I guess.

The last few months have been hard, as they have for most people. I’ve been dipping in and out of hopefulness, planning to do the things but not doing the things and then feeling shitty about the latter. An anxiety/depression spiral of unproductivity, with a dash of analysis paralysis. Plus some deep dark corners of trauma analysis and suicidal ideations.

But let’s not focus on that. I’d rather just give you a little “here’s some things I’ve liked recently” list, and yes that will include my own artwork because I like that too. So here you go sweet cheeks:

books

Supper Club by Lara Williams

AH THIS BOOK. I re-read it recently, consumed it just like the Supper Club would want me to. It’s so brilliant, hard to read sometimes (emotionally), but I loved it just as much as the first time I read it. And just look at that book cover. Perfection. If you like rebellious women trying to take up space whilst dealing with the bullshit that is life, read this.

coming undone: a memoir by terri white

A gut-punching memoir following Terri White’s journey to a psych ward. Another hard read, more traumas sitting under the surface, though I really appreciated how White was so brutally honest about her struggles with alcoholism. I wasn’t as invested with this book as much as I thought I would be, perhaps because of the topics involved and how very real it all was.

music

art

I was creatively SPENT after participating in Februllage (an art challenge based on Instagram in which you create a collage for each day of February, using the prompt word of each day). I was chuffed with myself for managing to complete it, and for one of my artworks to be reposted by the host of the challenge. I’m allowing myself to not make as much as I normally would at the moment, because I am allowed to take breaks, even if my mental illnesses don’t agree.

Oh, and there’s been a lot more darker tones in my work. Lots of skulls. Lots of black, red and white. Enjoy. And if you like it, feel free to take a look at some more art made by me on my Instagram: @thisstuffisgolden.


So, what’s new with you lot?

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